Over the past few days I have continued practicing and perfecting my skill in fashion illustration. I've done some, but I have hit a small block. I believe the block is more mental than physical. I've gotten frustrated to the point that my body itches and not just my growing belly. Even though I am 24 weeks pregnant, I don't want the feeling of me getting tired and frustrated to hinder me just when I am making great progress. Sometimes, I can be too hard on myself and feel that my illustrations are not what they used to be. Well, of course this problem of mine has been mentioned in one of the previous posts.
Another dilemma I am having is that, since I have been doing more research in plus size clothing and even doing research on plus size modeling and fashion shows, I have been getting so many ideas that it is crowding my brain to the point where I am getting frustrated. In fact, my husband had to stop me and help me relax and at least verbally express how I feel right now and that took about 15 to 20 minutes away from writing this blog entry.
I have also been dealing with trying find a job that fits my career path and trying to find one while I am six months pregnant. I have been thinking about if I should wait until two to three months after my son is born to work or to continue my search and see if someone will hire me even though I would have to be absent from work at least six weeks. I'm just not sure, but I did just begin to pick up where I left off on my search. In addition, my search has been anywhere but here (in Cleveland, Ohio). For the positions I am looking for, the search is leading toward New York, New Jersey, Los Angeles, and even Philadelphia. So, at this point I am wondering if I'll even get an interview. I'm wondering if I get an interview, how will I get there and will they hire me at this point of my pregnancy knowing that I am going to have to take time off to heal after giving birth and take care of my baby boy.
I have too many things in my brain right now. I think this would be the point where I should end the research and pick up again tomorrow. If I don't, I will not get a good nights sleep and it is now 11:25 pm eastern time.
Good night readers!