New sketches in the process, yet my brain won't let me continue.....

Over the past few days I have continued practicing and perfecting my skill in fashion illustration. I've done some, but I have hit a small block. I believe the block is more mental than physical. I've gotten frustrated to the point that my body itches and not just my growing belly. Even though I am 24 weeks pregnant, I don't want the feeling of me getting tired and frustrated to hinder me just when I am making great progress. Sometimes, I can be too hard on myself and feel that my illustrations are not what they used to be. Well, of course this problem of mine has been mentioned in one of the previous posts.
Another dilemma I am having is that, since I have been doing more research in plus size clothing and even doing research on plus size modeling and fashion shows, I have been getting so many ideas that it is crowding my brain to the point where I am getting frustrated. In fact, my husband had to stop me and help me relax and at least verbally express how I feel right now and that took about 15 to 20 minutes away from writing this blog entry.
I have also been dealing with trying find a job that fits my career path and trying to find one while I am six months pregnant. I have been thinking about if I should wait until two to three months after my son is born to work or to continue my search and see if someone will hire me even though I would have to be absent from work at least six weeks. I'm just not sure, but I did just begin to pick up where I left off on my search. In addition, my search has been anywhere but here (in Cleveland, Ohio). For the positions I am looking for, the search is leading toward New York, New Jersey, Los Angeles, and even Philadelphia. So, at this point I am wondering if I'll even get an interview. I'm wondering if I get an interview, how will I get there and will they hire me at this point of my pregnancy knowing that I am going to have to take time off to heal after giving birth and take care of my baby boy.
I have too many things in my brain right now. I think this would be the point where I should end the research and pick up again tomorrow. If I don't, I will not get a good nights sleep and it is now 11:25 pm eastern time. 


Good night readers!

My Life Is A Runway - Torrid Fashion Spring 2011

Forever 21 does Plus Size?!?!?! I am SO late!!!

Okay! So, I may be late on this news, but I am very excited to announce to those who did not know like me! I went to the website to see if it was true and see what they had! I am amazed to find that these clothes are classy, cute, and affordable. I am even excited to see that they featured curvy women with curvy women hips and thighs. It gives a realistic view to what the clothes would look like on someone with those size or shape thighs. *Grinning with Excitement* 
 Here are a few items I absolutely adore from Forever 21 Plus.
Crest Patch Cardigan
Lace Trimmed Floral Top
Knit Skinny Pants
Ruffled Leatherette Jacket

"I don't have to be as good as someone else to be great at what I do." ~Ebony Glass

I've been feeling a bit shameful and upset with myself. I think I have every right to be. I've allowed myself to become overwhelmed with "life" that I haven't allowed all of me to exist. I haven't allowed the existence, the total existence, of my love for art and creativity. At times I even felt self-conscious about myself and compared myself and my illustrations to others.  I didn't allow myself to paint, draw, sketch, even just color with a pack of Crayola Crayons.


In turn, I felt stagnant in myself. I felt stagnant in what I was blessed with the gift to do. I kept looking at my sketchbook and thought "I'm just not good." or "There are people who sketch WAY better than what I can do." I felt like my talent was shriveling up in front of me every time I ignored it to focus on what I could not control. That spooked me! 


I came the realization that I am the only one responsible for what I do with what I am blessed with and no one else. Besides God, I am the only one who knows what my potential looks like at the core and where it comes from. I'm the only one who knows what the naked root of my talent looks like. I'm the only one who knows how powerful that root can be and what can stem from it.


I had to say to myself, "I don't have to be as good as someone else to be great at what I do." And I mean just that. So, this writing this blog, continuing of my illustrations, and posting them is my way of dusting off what I've allowed to become dormant and showing it to everyone who cares to look. 


I owe this to God, to myself, to my husband, my son (who is kicking me in the uterus as I type), to my family, and even to you (the reader). So thanks for reading or looking. I'll do the best I can to not disappoint you, but remember... I have to not disappoint myself first.


Thanks for reading! Have a blessed day!

Color experimentation with Fuchsia and Royal Blue.

Fun for the spring. The use of watercolors and watercolor pencils helped me execute this illustration. :)

Experimentation with color for the Curvy over 30.

Had fun experimenting with drawing hats and ruffled collars and cuffs. 
Outfit:Yellow blouse under a peacock blue cardigan worn over a cotton black stretch straight leg pant. Royal purple hat.

 

 Dress: Peacock blue and royal purple top connected to black stretch  skirt. On the sleeves, waist of skirt and bottom of skirt 3 1/2 inch gold chains.

First blog illustration.

Pencil Sketch of the Curvy woman...

This may seem weird, but I LOVE to draw legs!